i did that again!
i did that again!
i did that again!
i can't believe i did that again =(
the last time i did it,it took 2months + to heal!
and this time it was harder and there was a little blood ...
i can't believe i did that last night...
how long is this going to heal... =(
i'm not feeling any better since yesterday afternoon...
i guess it was worst?
suddenly life seems so useless?
=(
i have no will to continue to my life now...
yesterday was looking on my calender and
i remember want happen last year ...
i was so sick,
i stayed in the hospital 3 freaking weeks!
at that time i wonder if i will die? =(
since my mother was there
i had to act that i'm happy and that there was no pain... =[
but deep down inside my heart i was bearing the pain,
hopefully not showing any pain or unhappiness to my mother...
anyways i'm still alive now...
but i wonder if i will go back to the hospital and stay there for like 3weeks... =[
i swear that if i go back there,
i will ask the doctor to kill me! D:<
i swear!
i don't want to waste my mother money...
waste her time on me...
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i think i feel better,
after writing it down?
or do i feel even worst...
i think i feel even worst
omg,
what is the problem with me!
i want my randomness and hyperness to come back!
i want them back!
and
i want that person...
=[
gracia,baoluan i'm in a deep mess!
=[
someone please help me get out of this mess! =[
or do i feel even worst...
i think i feel even worst
omg,
what is the problem with me!
i want my randomness and hyperness to come back!
i want them back!
and
i want that person...
=[
gracia,baoluan i'm in a deep mess!
=[
someone please help me get out of this mess! =[